January ’17

The first month of the year & it hasn’t been terribly terrible; even if I did send friends into a panic.  See, I deactivated my facebook account, turned off my phone and took a nap.  Yup – that’s all it takes to send my loveys into a panic.  No one could reach me (which, by the way, was the idea).  I think I might’ve maybe missed a dose or two of medicine, but I can never remember.

So far, this month has encompassed a whole world of things: friends, travel, happy, depression, motivation, laziness, lots of TV, lots of reading, a new cat, projects completed, and a fair bit of sex!

Yup, there’s a new guy in the picture.  We’ll see how it goes.  I’m on hyperalert, which I don’t know is totally fair to him, as I dissect his every action and question all his motivations.  I even made him cry last week (how nice was that? but it was just a direct conversation about things.) He is patient & quite smitten with me – so that’s always good.

I’m still not working.  I’ve pretty much given up on the previous application. I found another position I’ve applied for, which may be great (or a total nightmare).  God continues to provide, so it’s all good.

This post is quite boring, so if you’re still here, I’ll let you go for now.  Maybe things will pick up and get lighter as the year goes by.  Maybe I’ll get lighter, that would be a fabulous result.


Still (?) Dating

I am still on 3 online dating sites – one is  pay and has been a dismal failure.  They keep matching me with folks who don’t have accounts, so I can’t chat with them.  It’s the biggest waste of time!

I’ve gone out with this guy a few times.  We met for our initial meet-each-other date.  It was lunch at a local steak houses.  We went fishing one afternoon.  He came over here & hung out.  I showed him around.  I think he thinks I’m nuts that I think my house is haunted.  He took me out to dinner that night & we watched a movie.  Tonight he is cooking dinner for me.

He is TOTALLY unlike any guy I’ve dated before.  I hugged him “hello” when we met, and did not touch him again until he hugged me “bye” when he left after the movie.  He’s not love-bombed me.  He’s not monopolized my time.  We’ve actually gone a couple days and not talked at all.  The days we have talked it was usually just once. He’s not interrogated me about past relationships.  He is quiet, reserved, respectful, and seems very nice.  He even gave me a kayak!!!

We’ve not talked about sex, past relationships (much – I’ve asked a few questions), or our baggage.  Although, he has less, as he has no children and never been married.  He is a good ‘ol country boy.  He loves to hunt and fish.  His tackle room looks like my art studio.  i cannot begrudge anyone their hobby! Not at our age. He is an introvert who is willing to come to this extrovert’s cookout next weekend.  He seems appropriately nervous, but getting more comfortable.  He is willing to talk and push his boundaries.  I respect that.  He is a peaceful personality type.  I like that I don’t have to talk and it’s OK.  Some folks get all weirded out when I’m quiet (can’t imagine why.  They think I’m plotting against them.)

I’m not all butterieflied or twitterpated or caterwauling.  He’s just a guy and we are getting to know each other.  What a concept!

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